'Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

This is over my head but underneath my feet
'Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

'Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
Of What is real and just a dream...
Of What is real and just a dream...
Of What is real and just a dream...

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

'Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

'Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
Of What is real and just a dream...
Of What is real and just a dream...
Of What is real and just a dream...
Of What is real and just a dream...

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO FINALLY MY MUSIC LINK WORKS!!!!! WHOEVER WHO CAN HEAR THE SONG IN THE BACKGROUND PLS TAG ME TO TELL ME KAYS!!!! haha.. cuz i can hear it but am wondering if the world can hear it, the pt of me wanting to put this song on my blog is so that the world knows how i'm feeling at the moment, and i'm feeling this song. I've been putting it on repeat, falling asleep to it, I cant keep my ears off it. IT IS BEAUTIFUL.

wells, as what always happens, this song is telling a story abt what i'm feeling right now.

"I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening"
Right now i've kinda lost control of my feelings...I can't help liking him, but I can't help wondering why, and can't help trying to stop myself cuz i am so so so sure he's wrong for me. That he will hurt me. I keep telling myself that this isnt happening whenever i'm ard him or talking to him and falling for him. Never knew myself capable of strong enough feelings.

"And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy"
Kinda wish that if i told him, everything could still go back to the way that it was, but it's just a wish, i wish it could be that easy. Kinda wish that I could convince myself I didnt like him, so everything could go back to the way that it was.

"And I'm somewhere in between
Of What is real and just a dream... "
I've never really felt like this before, feels like something out of a dream, maybe a nightmare, I've never liked someone yet not know any reason why I like him. I've never been so sure that i HAVE to curb my feelings, and thou i like him so much, I just KNOW that he's gonna be someone who'll hurt me so much, and I just cant stand that. I'm stuck between reality and the dreamworld. Reality being that i WILL get hurt, and dream being that i've never felt like that.

"Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in"
Kind of like a replay of nine days' if i am, another song i'm hugely dependent on. Kind of asking if he'd be there for me. Also, to me, what i've fallen in, would be this state, falling for him. Yet i'm trying to fall out of this. Would there be someone to catch me when i finally do manage to curb my feelings? Someone who'd make things better..Would he even bother that he's hurt me, and catch me as I fall out of this?

"I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this"
This is kinda obvious isn't it, i've kinda always run away from my feelings, from confrontation with someone I feel something for, always denying my feelings for others. Just this one time, I don't want to run away anymore.. I wanna face this. Tell him to his face, yet why do i get the feeling i'll chicken out? I just know i don't need this, I don't need him, I don't need anyone in my life... I don't need this especially now when i'm trying to do a transfer, when i'm trying to get out of singapore, trying to accomplish my dreams of achieving the maximum in school. my dreams of being an overachiever.

This song just expresses everything i'm feeling now. It makes you feel this subtle sadness, the quiet confusion the person in it is supposed to be going through. Yet this song retains its sweetness.

He's really confusing me, i don't even know if i fall into the ranks of being his friend right now, he lets u in and then pushes u out again. What is with his habit of constantly trying to keep up his facade, keeping people an arm's length away? Sometimes u just want to slap him for it. Sometimes u wish he'd just make up his mind if he wants to be a friend or not. We'd broken into the ranks of being friends, yet now we're so distant again. It's so hard to fathom what's going thru his mind, I'm just so tired of this, I'd really really, love to give it all up. Why is it that liking someone can feel so terrible, there's absolutely nothing nice about it.
And i'm wondering why i'm still treating him nice enough, why i'm still bothering do so much.