Friday, March 11, 2005
daniel bedingfield-wrap my words around you
Is it fair to write a song to a woman
Is it fair to play to try to win her heart
Is it right to bring her sonnets in the morning-time
To express the first few longings when they start
To express the first few longings when they start
Is it right to let her feelings rise to catch you
Is it ok when her heart begins to fall
Would you blame me if I wrap my words around you girl
Would I wrong you to say anything at all
Would I wrong you to say anything at all
But if I wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around you
Would you stay, would you stay, would you
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around you
Would you stay, would it play with your heart
Am I a hunter if I send poems to please you
Am I a cad if I mean everything I say
Should I even let you know this song’s about you girl
Just because I want to see you smile today
And my words may bind you to me much too tightly
And you may choke upon them if we fall apart
It’s not fair to write a song to a woman, no
Because a woman takes a song into her heart
Because a woman takes a song into her heart
So let me wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Till you stay, till you stay, let me
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Darling, wrap my words around you
Till you stay, would it play with your heart
i'm in love with this song!!! think it's real nice.. i mean im not a fan of daniel bedingfield... he's wayyy too sappy with "if you're not the one" but this is.. nice.. love the beginning.. it caught me at that.
anyways... I PASSED MY BTT!!!! yay.. i think i got 100 marks, to appeal to my ego side.. haha but really.. i wish i could see the pass mark! damn.
but im gonna fail my eyesight test for the pdl.. THE E IS SO SMALL.. IT SHUD BE THIS SIZE : "E" see!!! i can see it! i can see it! it's... to the right! yay i pass. gosh im nuts. i hate that woman who i always get to test my eyesight... she gives me the "f*** off u blind bitch" look all the time. haha. lalala i shall be blind enough to drive the car into the driving ctr right into her counter.
hmm i blame it on my eyesight that sth amusing happens to me all the time. haha clare was pretty right.. she was saying that interesting things happen to me all the time.. esp when i go out at night. haha... i always do something outrageously rude or really silly, say sth really silly, or well.. most of the time, do sth klutzy. like how at pastamania just now i was talking and my hand stuck out and it hit some guy near the groin. hmm. clare thought i tripped him. haha wells.. and also we were like going.. to the pastamania counterboy... that our tickets are gonna be ticketstubs anyways in a couple of hours so we should be entitled to some special. haha i was more of joking all the time but that guy really went all the way. haha really nice. then later aft the movie went down to give him the ticket stub.. haha he's pretty cute with a nice smile. boyish. lala. whatever.
oh today sth really amusing happened at work. i had to call this indo guy to get his password so i can register him for class, and well when i did so... he spelt out his password for me and it went "s-u-c-k-m-e". u get what i mean. and i was writing it down letter by letter and my eyes bugged when i got to k. hahaha and so i didnt try to confirm his password with so ur password is "suckme" hahaha but i had to confirm class name.. and i was already on the verge of laughing. so u imagine. and when i hung up i just started bawling w laughter. haha. he didnt sound embarassed!!! haha. gosh the things people do when they think no one will ever find out that sth abt them. haha... too bad.
went to watch hitch with clare today.. haha she's so.. teacher-y! haha hitch is really funny...the concept's pretty sweet too. i like will smith's character and the dialogue btwn eva mendes and will smith... real witty and charming. my dream dialogue. but most people cant take my sarcasm when i really go all out with it... haha kinda regret being sarcastic to certain people. BUT SCREW THEM. i hate... commandos. hahaha... whatever. i value whatever wit i have.. rather be witty/insulting funny than lame funny. anyhow... thought the allegra and albert thing was so cute. haha... real sweet show. so funny. esp the end..
well i haven't updated in a while. lemme start from... thursday at dbl o. it was really good. i had sooo much fun with the summer and im japchinese act... cuz certain people believed it totally and completely. so it was all i could do to stop laughing when they tried to flatter my "name". haha.. just.. amusing cheapthrill. haha but aft that lie that im japchinese(only at dblo).. my colleagues started asking me if i'm local, if im mix(they said i look like im canadianmix wtf? is there such a thing?) and even bet on whether i moved from china when i was a kid. haha... and aft i told david that i wasnt really japchinese he told me to go check my family tree cuz i dont have the singaporean look.it's all coincidence that all these happened at the same time but it's... amusing that it did. but im gonna continue lying that im japchinese. haha. and going "no" when they ask if i can speak jap. HAH. oh had fun trying to convince pple im lesbian. note trying. cuz some guys are just.. whatever. haha... well met really quite interesting pple, a romanian canadian jon, a korean canadian david, and a hongkong canadian les. there's dominique but dunno who he is. but find it really refreshing talking to david online cuz very few people i know have a sense of humour, or can take it when i pretty much tell him i managed to fool him. and yea that would damage the ego of most guys..enough. and to tell him frankly that i found it amusing when they tried to flatter my "name" and to say that i wiped my hand imm on my skirt aft they kissed it. surprisingly he could take it really well. pretty glad cuz think i just got to know a pretty nice friend. really interesting. and it's a diff perspective since he's korean canadian. im pretty much getting a taste of how it'd be like getting to know... uhms waddaya call that... asian americans. still not a big fan of whites haha still find them intimidating and well, very very different values beginning from the root, and well im not comfortable with the fact there's racist campaigns by certain people over there. against asians and hispanics. im a coward so what. well yea.
and then friday.. results day. was pretty traumatic. haha think i was fine with biochem and econs but i hated my math results. cuz it's cut off alota possible paths with a C. really disappointed... in myself more like it. haha didnt try enough. i give up too easily. but really, i never did tutorials at all for math. soo... yea. maybe i deserved it. i saw the maths C. and then i just stood there quiet. i tried to be happy for others. but just didnt feel the smile that was on my face. then nxt thing i knew i was sobbing already. what the hell it sucks to not be able to control ur emotions. haha.. but i got over it, i guess. and that was like the height of my confusion abt whether to go overseas or not. but that was just one stinging moment. but guess i've thought it over.. still disappointed. but results arent who u are. just cuz u did badly(not that i thought i did) doesnt mean u're stupid, a bad person or anything like that. you're not defined by alphabets.. u've got way more dimensions to u that what u see on a flat piece of paper placed in a cheap file. and i mean i've always believed that it doesnt matter what ur results are, it only matters what kinda person u are and that u stick with it.. so it's time i practise what i preach. haha before the results, chatted with kim awhile... and haha she said that talking to me made her feel better abt the results. haha cuz i told her abt my beliefs. haha and reasoned them out. present success doesnt mean future success(quote clare yes yes) and wells.. so what u got straight As u got great results? you've got no ambition, not much zest for life, not much creativity, u're not a thinker, u take everything dished out at u as it is, trusting that everything given to u is right, u;ve got no eq, u're socially inept... i mean so what? so As are what u are? so what if u're from some neighbourhood jc or what.. that doesnt mean u're not intelligent... there are intelligent people and talented people. you could be a talented person. and sometimes what matters is that u be happy, and accept yourself. if you cant accept your grades and take them in ur stride, how can u learn to accept urself? in time, people will forget your grades, and eventually what matters is the person you are. that u love the person u are.
hmm im talking alota kok aint i. but really, im starting to really believe in my ideals no matter if my brother faults me for being ambitious and idealistic. haha and yea ive come a long way to climb outta that shithole i was in some time ago. alone. haha u have no idea. it sucks when u put urself out for hurt. toughen up. learn to deal. haha it's mean when i say that to you. but learning to deal is a lonely lesson. hah. wells went "you're nuts" in reply to someone's message tt he's been crying cuz he's leaving his wonderful colleagues. and he replied that he's just emotional and he needs support. and well i told him to learn to deal and that this kinda things u cant expect pple to empathise with him. u do such things alone duncha. cant always expect people to really be there for u thru a long process such as being alone. it was mean the way i said the things i said. sounded so cold. but it's facts. "i'm a realist". hahaha.
anyways that whole passage abt the As, it's dedicated to those who don't think they did well for As, and those who didnt think they did well for As but had to put on a facade. hope u guys feel better, there isnt really much i can do. i can't go up to u people and say hey u alright? cuz u obviously arent. who the hell would be after feeling so much disappointment in oneself. but you are strictly not just a few alphabets. u have GOT to learn to look past that. and this time, u're looking past the surface to urself, not someone else. u have to learn that.
oh wells i digress. met cher at venezia and then left to ps to watch unfortunate events and eat dinner and dessert aft the movie! haha.. was so nice.. it's always nice to talk to an old friend, cuz there's no barriers. gosh im so gonna miss the old friends... hmm or the people who matter. haha. missing michie already... realised ive got very few old friends. but guess that's all i should need. anyhows i like sunny!!! and the paedophile in me loves the guy who looks like gordo. haha and i think the oldest girl looks soooo pretty!!!!unique looks! sunny is so cute and sunny and rosy. haha. wells. later on pigged out on secret recipe...
think cher looks hot with her new hair... still love her with whatever hair. the dumbdumb keeps going on mission trips thou. SUCKS.
we then walked along orchard frm ps to taka there and sat down and pretty much interrupted lots of couples getting it on. haha. so nice.. cant really do that with most other people. haha
wells sat met bell and some nj pple to go smu talks. was so embarassing cuz when they professor said they wanted people who spoke up, the whole nj gang turned to look at me.. and alota pple noticed this huge grp of youths turning in my direction. the professor laughed. IM SCREWED. then went with bell and interrogated this smu guy.. bombed him w qns. hah. sorry i was seriously considering smu that's why. haha. still am. oh the same pple at my workplace who thought they'd fail a levels fretted abt getting thru the smu interviews cuz they really wanted smu oh man. not again. haha. but thinking that smu is very ac... very... the pple i met first three mths. rich kids, spoilt kids, attitudinal kids, really goodlookers(already know one going in) but with really sucky personalities. haha. and the marginally nice ones. haha. any acsians reading this dont be offended. wells was dragged off by bell and shopped in town. ate oyster meesua and xxl chicken! SOOOOO NICCCEEE.. and fattening. hmmss. think the guy at nz ice cream parlour is real cute. ok sorry tt was side note.
talked kok and ate alot and everything haha gosh. rocked
oh wells.. haha tonight laogong is going clubbing! omg.... i couldnt believe it haha..hope he has fun and gets addicted or sth and becomes a chronic alcoholic. but that'll be too mean to wish upon him. haha.
prob gonna join afua soon.. like this sunday going for meeting.
oh yea... they're orging this thing called HopeJam feat lots of local acts.. like eic, electrico, ugly in the morning, ronin, rafe, etc. gonna be a great experience! ahaha esp for pple who love wala.. eic plays at wala. and esp for those who love live music. haha i know i love live music when it's really live. not in mp3 format thankew. u feel the soul man. haha it's on 27th march easter sunday 2-1030 pm and im licensed to take orders. so yea! pls come.. and get tix from me! 10 bux only.. buy to support also can... im doing this cuz i think the local music scene really has potential. i didnt used to think so. just hope to see lots of pple my age there. and oh the 10 bux u can use for games and merch too. yups. will be fun!
oh and afua is opening an afua club in smu and gonna open an afua cafe near new smu campus. think plans are in the works la.. hope to be part of all this. sounds really fun. and a great way to know pple. thou most of the girls in afua are rgs girls and younger than me. damn.
wish me luck this sunday then.. got so much to suggest for publicity! haha and no ming i dont think im too involved. u can nv be too involved in sth u're genuinely interested in.
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