Wednesday, February 02, 2005
miSSy hiGGinS-sCar
He left a card, a bar of soap,
And a scrubbing brush next to a note that said
“Use these, down to your bones”
And before I knew, I had shiny skin
And it felt easy being clean like him,
I thought “This one knows better than I do”
A triangle try’na squeeze through a circle
He tried to cut me so I’d fit
And doesn’t that sound familiar?
Doesn’t that hit too close to home?
Doesn’t that make you shiver?
The way things could have gone.
And doesn’t it feel peculiar,
When everyone wants a little more?
So that I do remember to never go that far
Could you leave me with a scar?
So the next one came with a bag of treats,
She smelt like sugar and spoke like the sea.
She told me “Don’t trust them, trust me”
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one,
Looked at my insides clicking her tongue and said
“This will all have to come undone”
A triangle try’na squeeze through a circle
She tried to plug me so I’d fit
And doesn’t that sound familiar?
Doesn’t that hit too close to home?
Doesn’t that make you shiver?
The way things could have gone.
And doesn’t it feel peculiar,
When everyone wants a little more?
So that I do remember to never go that far
Could you leave me with a scar?
I think I realised, just in time
Although my old self was hard to find
You can bathe me in your finest wine
But I’ll never give you mine.
’Cos I’m a little bit tired of fearing that I’ll be the bad fruit, nobody buys.
Tell me did you think we’d all dream the same?
And doesn’t that sound familiar?
Doesn’t that hit too close to home?
Doesn’t that make you shiver?
The way things could have gone.
And doesn’t it feel peculiar,
When everyone wants a little more?
So that I do remember to never go that far
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?
got to know this song thru mtv. really really nice esp the mtv.. she's playing the piano and the piano's like this beautiful ancient vintage thing and it falls apart as she plays on. hmms thinking that this song's about people who keep trying to change u, and well sometimes u succumb to change cuz of ur fear or winding up all alone or anything else. yups aiya but not like the litmeister so screw it.
haha... been a pretty ok few days. wasted my weekend of uni app. mervs came over to get his sats scores frm me.. im so damn nice la i help da arse print stuff and he and his big mouth still wanna go tell some pple abt sth. idiot. u tell then i'll tell urs. but urs the whole world knows already. wahhaha but too bad i got more ba bing can sabo! haha. nahh im nice. well finally got the pink boxers to him, and we were talking like idiots in the hot sun at his car. wtf. and i saw this cute brunette sliding down the slope outside my hse. damn i think i live in an area where im surrounding by cute kids cute guys cute girls but i just dun realise it. i shall go jogging one morning and watch out. wahaha.
anyways that's like the only social life i had during the wkend... and oh last thurs me becks and shao went to watch elektra... NICE! sdtk nice... i love her bod. and i love the girl's weapon the warrior beads thing. very pretty. i dint expect the twist damn i suck. but it was WAYYYY better than daredevil. rem cher fell asleep watching it and i kept looking at my watch. haha. and i seem to have a tendency to: 1. eat burger king before movies 2. need to pee halfway thru movies, these couple of weeks. yesterday went to watch finding neverland... sat in front. argh. went with jing and baby. haha and the same thing happened. and when i reached the orchard mrt station, then i told baby, "i think ive died and gone to cute guy heaven"... it's the drawback of working in a place where u're called xiaomei and surrounded by uncles and the only okay eligible guy is being swamped by charlie's angels. wahahhaa. i need to build my nj empire. and i wanna get a guy friend to work here and see how charlie's angels react. haha they might swamp him cuz any guy can be more eligible than the guy i mentioned. wahaha. damn im such a biatch. it's baby's fault.
yeaps.. anyways finding neverland is a really good movie... ok i think it was good personal opinion. really sad... think the story that revolves ard peter's real sweet. it's like... peter pan is the boy who never grows old, but the peter in this story is the boy who tries to grow up too fast. irony in that. haha. johnny depp as usual is DAMN BLOODY GOOD... haha i dint use to like him but now im starting to appreciate his acting and yea baby his charm. wahhaa. he actually manages to convince the audience of the little boy in him. so nice. i think george is cute. the oldest kid. droool. im paedo.
and the ending... johnny depp and peter disappeared from the bench while the umbrella and hat's still there cuz they've left for neverland to visit peter's mom. the ending's real sweet. and peter's a really good actor. his expression was so sad.. that scene.. i wuddda cried if i didnt need to pee too.
that was gross. ok. fine. whatever.
yuppsssss... oh and after the movie was real entertaining. haha we walked amongst the stalls set up outside lido... and there was one stall where there was this guy juggling and making balloon animals(i want!!!) and haha me and jing were stopping to watch and laugh(he dropped the things he was juggling) then baby came to get us and the juggler like moved his hat and greeted her... like a slight old english hat thing. haha then i was just laughing already cuz hahaha... hairstylist, juggler, nice professions girl! hahaha. get a manicurist nxt. haha yay let's have a family BUSINESS... u got the hairstylist i got the bartender who got the who? haha think it's real funny. but mine's a non issue on comparison. oops now baby's gonna kill me.
oh and guess what... haha i got a REALLY nice lamp thingie... hanging lamps of baby...lon. hahaha. wells yea it's star shaped, medievel looking, made of copper and glass and got a candle inside. damn pretty. oh and they had lava lamps too... for 20 bucks! omg. i wan. ok wait till i go overseas. i nida funky up my dorm. if i get into the unis there. haha and baby's the best actress and bargainer. hahaha she's still got her charms even thou she doesnt have her hair anymore.. sorta. ahaha. i cant bargain for nuts.. i must learn. hahaa i couldnt even work with baby on her bargaining stint. i just laughed and tried to concentrate on the pretty(actually ugly) little things at the side. wahha. baby rocks!
oh and then me jing mich went to pac plaza and stood outside considering going in... and then haha turns out quite alota j3s were there.. so bumped into quite a few friends. ahahaha and sth happened that made me give mich the raised eyebrows look. haha. pretty darn disgusting. oh please. haha same thing happened before at zouk, same people with one bitch addition. haha. DO I KNOW U THAT WELL? gimme a break. hey baby... i think it's a bird thing. haha.
well yea it was interesting. and i saw one of baby's friends who disturbed me so badly.. i started wondering.. do i look like that too when i dress for clubbing? hhahaha.. how how... haha i might have a disillusioned look that im not that fat but i think i might be in the eyes of others. oh shucks. fat or not that is the question. haha. shit. ok fat. haha cuz i looked so flabby in my prom gown. argh.
anyways its so entertaining. haha and for the whole night both me and baby had the same taste in guys cuz we kept looking at the same guy then we'd turn to give each other that look that said "ooooo" haha. sounds desperate but really is girl fun la. haha then damn funny both of us checked out the same guy the same time at lido there.. and baby had the... look. haha and she thinks that that guy saw it. wahha. baby likes biting her straw! seductively! oops. hahaha then like well that;s not even the worst part. baby got super embarassed when....
my friend was one of the girls that guy was with!!!! haha it's like we suddenly heard my name and there! angeline! hahaha. wah but she's so much prettier now. haha tink they went chinablack cuz saw mun wei there too.
haha and well later on we went back to chinablack just to pop by and check it out. haha i was like groaning cuz i had my HUGE pasar auntie bag with me. and it was filled. i shoved my lamp inside. haha. and wellsssss... i embarassedly went in.. haha the door bitch is chio la. haha then wells i was going "i'll die if i see anyone i know in here" over and over again and guess what? i saw one of my ac friends. i was sooo flustered wahhaa. and when we tried to get out i almost attempted to walk across the dance floor. waha. kinda miss chinablack la. had fun there last time at the party there. so sad no more jc parties for us...
haha baby and i came to the conclusion that the cute guys only came out at nite cuz chinablack was filled with them. haha... and only at chinablack. haha.. phuture's music's good but so crowded and she said.. "filled with rejects" which comes to be pretty true.
anyways it's filled with old guys too and ive had my fill of old guys wahhahaa at my workplace.
anyways... then sat by macs(or mackers waha) sharing a large lemon tea talking cock and nice stuff. haha. and i wud like halfway go "oh man he's so cute" haha cuz i was sitting facing this guy at the end... he's got the ac face la and this week i got a thing for that. wahhaa. so funny. and baby was considering what to say to her hairstylist and i was just like damn i love tt face. oh shucks. im such an ass. hahaha. baby doesnt think he's cute. haha im so sad. haha... baby said the chikopeks at three o clock were looking at me... and i pointed to twelve o clock instd. damn. my math is incorrigible. haha. anyways we were chatting and shit and suddenly my bag dropped from the chair to the floor and one of the chikopeks laughed. grr.
and it was 11 sth when we left and so hard to flag a cab!! so we wound up taking 77(i was almost murdered).. was nice talking abt stuff... esp some stuff tt's been bothering me kinda. dankew baby.
haha and for those wondering what this title is all abt.. sos.life is sth i came up with when me and xiaowei were complaining abt our social life. so.. it's save our social life campaign. wahhaha.
right now someone keeps asking me if im angry at him. im not angry but pissed. cuz he suddenly blew up in my face when i dint ACCURATELY describe his job...just used one word.. ur airport job... n he got pissed off cuz he's not working at the airport, it's near the airport dealing with airplane parts. what's his problem? and he went on to say super idiotic insulting highstrung shit. and i'd like to say, go to hell i know im way smarter than u are so u have no right to insult me like that as if im some retard over sth so trivial. f***king acting like my bro. wah u're a F***KING big shot la. gimme a break..
oh just now went to toilet(now im at the office) and guess what??? i tot i saw this guy walk outta this cubicle... cuz very tall very short hair and stuff... then i stood there stunned. like shit did i go to the wrong toilet. then later on... realized... it's a girl!!!! ahhhhhhhh... so embarassing.
one day, just one day we'll have them back. i miss them too even thou they're still ard. it's so different.
She needed someone at 8:01 PM
