Sunday, February 20, 2005
mInniE drIver-iNviSible gIrl
Panda eyes and your sister's dress that you took and you tore
And you know that you got a long walk home
Pick your way over drunken shapes on the lawn by the pool
And you lost both your shoes that his Mom's gonna find
Her dress,
Your shoes,
Little flower bruise
Old smoke in your hair,
No subway fare, but you don't care
Heart shines like a neon sign
For tonight won't you just be mine
Invisible girl, in the sodium light
She's the Queen of the Night
Crown starts to slip and fade, little feet on the street
Tired girl in someone else's clothes
Stand in the quiet house, making tea, making toast
Making room for your daytime ghost
Her dress,
Your shoes,
Little flower bruise
Old smoke in your hair
No subway fare, but you just don't care
Heart shines like a neon sign
For tonight won't you just be mine
Invisible girl, in the sodium light
She's the Queen of the Night
Heart shines like a neon sign
For tonight won't you just be mine
Invisible girl, in the sodium light
She's the Queen of the Night
Your sun is the evening star
Your temple the downtown bar
Invisible girl, in the sodium light
She's the Queen of the Night
She's the Queen of the Night
FIRSTS
First best friend ;; think was grace ong
First car ;; gonna be a nice sleek AUTO convertible or a mini cooper with xm as the car plate
First real kiss ;; none yet, real or not whatever that is... haha im so nice n squeaky clean and innocent wahha
First break-up ;; none wahhaha nv been attached how to breakup unless u count chickening outta a first date in sec2
First screen name ;; i think it was bluebubblez... DONT ASK.
First self purchased album ;; think it was a1 or britney spears. most prob a1 then britney spears. YUCKS. n i still have them cant seem to get rid of them.
First funeral ;; my gonggong when i was a really small kid... my cousins told me i was so horrible i refused to wear a dress and wud kick up a fuss abt wearing dresses. and now my little cousin's in the same phase. haha guess everyone's got a boyish side. esp with two idiotic bros.
First pets ;; none.. unless u count the stray cats who always seem to run into the hse.. n into my rm. haha since i was a kid stray cats would come into my hse and sometimes even follow me. nice! i got familiars.
First credit card ;; soon! soon! maybe a mini, a black or a women's card. lala
First true love ;; none n starting to not believe anymore haha dont everyone just see each other as nth but eye candy. nothing goes beyond surface no more.
First big trip ;; aussie? think so. yea cant really rem. but rem the smell of aussie.
First music you remember hearing ;; dont remember haha unless u count a1?
LASTS
Last cigarette ;; first and last. (im taking it frm mich too... haha cept mine was abit premature wahaha)
Last car ride ;; unless u count my dad fetching me to work, but i'd like to think of the car ride aft zouk. hahaha xw huh?
Last kiss ;; tolcha none!
Last good cry ;; can't remember don't wanna.
Last library book ;; haha too long ago to rem. unless u count archie comics frm 2nd hand bk shop
Last movie seen ;; constantine which dear me nearly cut off dear baby's blood circulation. reminiscent of signs back in sec sch huh? cept that was bell but baby was ard too!
Last beverage drank ;; mango milk during lunch oo yea good ac memories.
Last food consumed ;; chicken porridge... trying to cut down on eating so much.
Last crush ;; haha dunno ***? last major one la... haha i dun even know if it's considered a crush. haha but i did find some guy real cute on sat.
Last phone call ;; cant remember. haha... maybe xw? on sat? oh or my dad on sat.. whatever.
Last time showered ;; yesterday nite
Last shoes worn ;; my "the one" adidas sneakers in the nicest colour there is. i love it!!!! it's "the one"
Last item bought ;; food? for lunch?
Last time wanting to die ;; hmm. shall we keep this a secret.
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends ;; bell? haha yea and alota very very very very close friends who i tell everything too and i actually MISS a hell lot... and buddies too.
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nopppeeee haha single and hopefully available haha hopefully gotten over every damn thing.
03. who are your close friends? ;; baby cher bell mervs dunno leh got quite alot but not many coming to mind. n im freaked out by someone who was my close friend haha he's just.. i dunno.
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? orchard? i like the life and everything feel more like myself and everything there. it's a vibe thing.
S P E C I F I C S
01. do you do drugs? rhinocort! haha medication for my sneezy nose.
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? ;; now organics but wanna switch back to lux.. looking for a nice shampoo tt doesnt screw up my hair
03. what are you most scared of? ;; tangible or intangible? haha hts, darkness, being alone when i dun wanna be, jabs. the friendlessness i expect when i go overseas. and close frens backstabbing me.
04. what are you listening to right now? ;; dana glover's thinking over, but still have chemical brothers' galvanize in my head. haha heard it in the car on sat and it was sooo nice.
05. who is the last person that called you? ;; xw?
06. where do you want to get married? ;; not singapore for sure. but some really nice sweet outdoorsy countryside place? simple, beautiful, floral and NOT a hotel wedding where most of the people are pple u dont even know.
07. how many buddies are online right now? now's work time so not many online but was complaining to mervs abt sat. bleh but that was on sms.
08. what would you change about yourself? ;; i don't really know if the me now is what people want. haha and who knows how much i'll change when i go overseas. even e junjie guy on sat was like whoa cant imagine how much u'll change when u go overseas. haha we were talking abt uni and going abroad and pple.
f a v o r i t e s
01. color ;; blue and black. wahhaa... black for clothes. but im starting to get into red for clothes. waha.
02. food ;; fried egg, formaggi pizza!!!! alot lehs. maggie mee?
04. girls' names ;; jan-en and gaia.
05. subjects in school ;; bio n econs n if u can count it, geog.
06. animals ;; gray white or black or siamese kittens. and those tiny puppies like terries with the furry faces.
08. perfume ;; beyond paradise and starting to have a thing for ibiza hippie thou it's real old. i like xw's paul smith too!
09. cologne ;; haha dunno there's this certain cologne i totally love if it's possible, it actually smells real sexy wahaha. only exists at clubs waha. esp zouk.
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? ;; my baby cousin simin.
02. smoked? ;; first and last, again taking it frm michie. so many repeats!
03. bungee jumped? ;; never now never ever.
04. made yourself throw-up? ;; not really.
05. skinny dipped? ;; nahhh im not prouda my body.
06: ever been in love? ;; don't think so.
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? ;; nope. hate the types.
08. pictured your crush naked? ;; nope im not sick thankew very much. ew.
09. actually seen your crush naked? ;; if only huh nahhhh.
10. cried when someone died? ;; yea but it wasnt cuz they died but it was cuz pple i loved felt sad.
11. lied ;; DOH. plenty plenty. ive got aliases like apple and jan-en lala. wanna increase the list.
12. fallen for your best friend? ;; sorta back in sec2. then we went back to being close then now hardly talk. life gets kinda... ironic in a way sometimes. and sorta made the same mistake again a coupla yrs ago, but kinda denied tt i felt tt way. haha oh well too late now.
13. been rejected? ;; hmm.
14. rejected someone? ;; heh. uhm yea and most of the time i dont regret it.
15. used someone? ;; not sure i'll need someone to tell me if ive done tt before
16. done something you regret? ;; plenty.
a r e | y o u
understanding ;; eh... these things should be answered by friends. how the hell would i know.
arrogant ; guess so ive been told so before.
insecure ;; haha definitely been told this a million times and over many yrs somemore.. and to think i musta seemed really... confident and sharptongued on sat huh.
interesting ;; no idea. ask others.
hungry ;; super full now.. and bloated.
smart ;; i dunno comparatively?
moody ;; depends on my mood. hah.
ok the stupid quiz is really...stupid. doing it cuz im REALLY BORED at work... haha. hahhaa but i watched the vid of minnie driver's invisible girl.. really nice. kinda old school. nice. it's like in the generation of paperboy and paula cole and semi charmed life. haha. vh1 oo yea. pretty sad song. as in the mtv u just imagine urself standing in such a fast paced world where no one cares that u exist, essentially all alone, looking for that nice warm world u actually fit in or at least belong to.
im fulla shit aint i.
anyways sat.. chingay. hahaha wells went out with bells in the day... and got this really nice red top... so many straps that i took quite a while to figure out how to wear it. then yea bell said it was the nicest of the other tops (one made me look pregnant and another.. i liked cuz it made me look old but yea.)... and she was like liew u look nice in red. like since when la. but im getting bored w black. but i miss my old black backless. ok so i wanna go club this sat. shud i wear my black backless or my nice red new top or my sorta new miss selfridge off shoulder? HELP. lala. im lame la. i keep wearing the same shit for work im bored already.
anyways yea last sat. chingay. back to topic. yea had a nice time with bell wahhaa eating, of course, haha so sad they dint have the tortellini bell recommended! haha the chicken steak is damn good. and i went and bought 20 packets of korean seaweed. and cuz of the last min decision to go zouk, lugged it along to zouk. STUPID. hahaha but it was in my brown mphosis pprbag la. hahaha cheryl looks hot i still think so. i love her hair. but if i cut it that way i'd look idiotic. maybe one day when im feeling crazy. right now i just wanna streak my hair a BRIGHT red and go perm it... saw this place in far east... 40 bucks for soft waves... cosmetic curls look very fake anyways. maybe im gonna do the wavy thing. but it better be obvious not my disastrous highlights. anyways cher and bell dumped me dateless for the chingay so went with xw for dinner then went to chingay or rather watched the top of the paraders' heads bop along cuz it was so f***king crowded. anyways saw jeremy yuanxu becks n this other choir girl there. saw this dance guy too. anyways later on went to zouk... and BLOODY HELL. stupid derwin said breakbeats are sth like rnb only more electric... and if the shit music at phuture was breakbeats, it helllll wasnt rnb. it was hell weird. haha.
anyways, had teq shots, apricotbrandy, lychee martini(absolutely delicious). ahaha and going clubbing with xw is very ego-inflating cuz she kept saying this cute guy that cute guy is looking at me and that she's some nonexistent ghost. grr. aiya yikes. but sat at zouk had SOOOO many cute guys. hahaha. even the bartender haha xw hates him now even thou he has nice eyes. haha. but she seemed to notice all the cute guys but i always seemed to be so clueless. yikes. im blind!!!! haha esp the supeerrrr cute guy who smiled in our direction as i looked away cluelessly and made xw melt wahha. haha anyways the music at both zouk and phuture sucked. slovenian dj at zouk my ass, he looked positively chinese. and the music sounded like the same song playing over and over again. haha. at phuture, the music was nice to listen to, not nice to dance to. it was like punk rock and alternarock all mixed up. so hard to dance to. wahha.
wells ok here comes the meat of what happened. anyways me and xw were just dancing.. we had noticed this buncha guys and this one girl together and the one with the girl LOOKED hot frm far... haha... well we went down to dance la then i couldnt stop laughing at this hired dancer so we went over to the side to dance instd. then later this buncha sleazeball looking sleazeballs came over and went "hi! me and my friends would like to get to know u!" then i was like no again. and they were insistent again and so i introed myself as jan-en to them. and almost laughed out loud as i introed myself. haha. then later after introing i think maybe i looked helpless or sth but anyways the buncha pple i mentioned.. the couple waited for the guys to get lost and then came over and asked us to join their two guy friends and said they're very decent one and wont try anything funny. haha and we looked lost again and well we went ahead la screw it. but they really were nice... did nth but talk they din really try anything funny. were really gentlemanly and all that. found out the girl, grace, is a really sweet trackker... and she and her bf who i think is mix, bosco, look damn sweet together. both are from millenia, real near my hse! wow. then the other two guys, the one with xw was junjie and the other one, is gabriel/junhan. haha they tot we were sisters when they heard i was xiaomin and she was xiaowei. haha but then told us their names too. haha. quite cute. ahaha was pretty nice talking to them, found out tt gabriel turns 21 this yr, and is entering smu this yr. haha. he was frm tpjc. haha and haha he wants to enter accounting. super coincidental la. but im only considering smu. haha but im really tempted... aft seeing the culture and considering my future classmates, definitely not a repeat nj. haha. so maybe i was blinded? but going overseas for business is still better for my future la. i guess. but i'll miss alot. still seriously considering and in a HUGE dilemma. haha cuz i dont exactly have a huge clique here like most pple, my friends are in drips and drapes and stuff... dont exist in some huge grp. and most of my old friends are almost nonexistent already so who cares anymore. and really, lots of the pple here are just saying it when they say dun go overseas la or they'll miss u. whatever. shats. but i'll be friendless over there, esp the way my bro describes it. and having to 'pay' for friends in sororities? omg. and i hate being alone and i wont wanna be over there.
but i also dun wanna drift from the pple staying here. so it sucks. argh. help.
anyways yea it was nice talking to those guys and later we migrated to phuture where it sucked but we were having fun just jumping ard acting nuts. esp the uhm cute guy(haha xw) haha he was so funny. anyways the idiot lied tt he was a clerk(i was wondering why the hell he sure didnt look like a clerk) when he was a commando ord-ing in march. haha can imagine him in the uhm pink beret. anyways later when we got sick of the phuture music we went out and he sat on the railing. ahaha and i watched a bouncer come by and tell him to get off the railing then laughed at him. waha. oops. then later we went out back by the river and sat and talked, the idiot actually walked one whole round ard us before he sat down. waha it was really funny like four seats and i sat with xw and then he was behind me and his friend took a seat opp me and then he walked all ard and went to the seat beside me soooo funny. like idiotic funny cuz he didnt think to walk a few steps back. haha. and oh he made a funny comment... "jurong institute... so far... in jurong" BWAHA... so himbo. and when we talked and got to some sick topic he'd look down at his shirt... haha cuz it said "my first orgy" and had a naked girl on it. haha. and then we'd laugh at him and he'd insist it was a gift and then he'd fold up his shirt to cover the orgy word and then cross his arms over his chest as if he were being violated. haha really funny. but generally was really nice talking la. cept that haha i insulted him soooo many times. xw said tt i totally deflated his ego. haha n even xw likes his face, bod, and hahahaha attitude. funny. anyways she said looks like girls flock to him everyday and im like so sarcastic to him so it's like he was like argh nvm too lorx. haha acc to her like when i asked xw to go clubbing the following sat then he said yea i'll go for u but i had no response so haha. yikes? and in the club he put his hands on my waist but i supposedly looked uncomfy w it so he dint try anything else waha. and i kept looking on the floor when he talked. or sth. oh shucks, really? oh n haha i gave him a omg u're much older than me look even when he insisted that he was only 2 yrs older than me haha... then i said no it's 3 yrs cuz im 18. yikes? haha but oh well xw said i dint blow it cuz anyways i wudda been sarcaz to him sooner or later. haha. she said the orange shirt guy was like really cute in that he was totally innocent and unaware of what's going on kinda person. haha. anyways later on he gave us a ride back.. for me back to orchard hotel and for xw back home cuz grace and bosco stayed in the area too anyways. haha. but it was a pretty nice experience cuz for once someone at a club isnt the total sleazeball kind and yea they were pretty gentlemanly. nicee. u hardly get that ard already.
oh well but let's REALLY hope this sat at zouk will be much better, music wise esp. so far only 1 hr of rnb at chinablack. how pathetic. oh wells. and friday has flava with andrew chow. dunno whether to go on friday or sat. haha WTF are breakbeats anyways... it better not be what they played last sat. DAMN.
She needed someone at 10:09 PM
