Wednesday, December 29, 2004
uhoh.
haha some may know why im uhoh-ing... for the others... that's for me to know and u to never find out. haha...
oh well well well... haha guess i got kinda pissed tt it seemed some pple dint EVEN seem to give a shit when well they were pple that mattered. maybe i've been blind.
haha k baby i shall resolve to have that new year's resolution... yay i finally have a new year's resolution so nice...and this time i think i can live up to it! i dont see what else i have to worry abt other than that inner hurdle tt u know abt within myself. think a coupla pple have really gotten to know me WAYYYY better over the years... like i can say sth and the nxt thing the other person says is sth totally relevant. like well... the person would be like "i know u, the nxt thing u're gonna say when u reach tt stage is ************"
haha cuz i always... avoid. yup... haha shall not give them the benefit of always predicting my future. haha... some stuff baby said maybe it's true. im not very good at reading myself. but yea sometimes it's nice when pple give a shit. but haha very few do. and thou thanksgiving is gone and im not christian or whatever, im thankful for these people yups.
it's like u can be surrounded by people... so many people u recog and recog u and so many pple to say hi and bye to. but how many can u trust to say more than hi and bye to u, for life? yups. think, compared to sec4, ive got more hibye friends, and fewer really close friends. like some really close ones have progressed on to become friends u can tokok with, joke with etc, but eventually at the end of the day, when u need them to be ard, maybe not even if u're really happy or really sad, but like say when it would mean alot for them to be there, they're never there. always somewhere else, leading that superficial high and dry life of theirs.
it's right to say that pple are too busy caring abt other stuff in their life that they're past caring abt u. really. guess that's life. sounds jaded but well it's life and pple change. and well ive come to another pt in my life where it yells CHANGE in the air. "ch-ch-changes" yea?
well i cant possibly tell u that u matter to me...u have to sense it urself.
but u know what? new year's approaching and ive never felt so... stressed. alota stuff.. like even imagining how nxt year this time wud be like.
my last friggin' bday in spore for quite damn long. pple wudda forgotten me by then. they would be xiao-f*ing-who? haha.
thanks baby man... in WAYYYY advance for the first class registered spirit mail. haha... hey man it's almost from the south to the north pole man. oh wait u'd be in spore. lousy shit. hahaha.. ok fine. think winter vacation would suck BIG TIME over there... no more of the warmth of nice xmas cards that actually write stuff in there... love those.... unless pple in spore bother to send all the way to the northern hemisphere... and no more of the sms jams at 12 before my bday. and no more bellbell they all always being ard on my bday. or maybe for once others will be the ones bothering that it's my bday over there and i can just slack with a nice book. hahaha... or nonono... baby... i still like my initial plan of sexy hot texan hunk coming to strip for me. wahahhaa...
ok so it's first class registered spirit mail.... plus sexy hot texan hunk stripper guy. haha. yayyy. bleh but im not into hunks. nooo fun. hahahha... yayy so fun crapping like some asshole breathing(laogong's joke or my joke at laogong's expense) kinda excited to meet old friends and all too... wonder how timmie will dress haha wristguard poser anyone? haha. and wells seeing laogong's future gf will be nice. haha... goodness the idiot goes to help her pack her room wth??? ok oops i hope he doesnt read this. ok la but laogong always gets his girl. like 99% of the... 4 years ive known him. and he wont let go abt how i got lost in acsi last time. haha like tt was the first time i met him. then later on coincidentally we met again online thru friends. kinda weird. and cant rem details. but still keep in touch with like yukai. yea...miss lots. argh. well i def wont see so many pple again nxt yr. why do air tix have to be so ex. VALUAIR AND TIGER FLY TO THE US. haha... whatever. actually would be nice to see how life overseas over winter would be like. i liked the cold in korea anyways. and maybe i'll hit it off with some pple and we'll like go whistler and go skiing! yay skiing again! NO SNOWBOARDING. haha.. unless there's some hunk to teach me. wheeee... kawaii boys. haha... whatever la me and my eyecandy appreciation.
haha i think i shall wipe the slate clean over new year. shall quit my little infatuations here and there and well quit my stupid little crushes. haha. actually not little. but. yea. GET OVER THEM! yea man. anyone wanna join the "get over it" club? yayy.
im mad.
first class registered spirit mail. hot sexy texan hunk. getting over stuff. new year beckons.
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