Saturday, October 09, 2004
SATS 2 IS OVER! n i celebrated by watching tv till like... now. im getting addicted to staying at home. im a stay-at-home slacker. haha.. i love the tv. it's my alternate reality. an escape frm all the changing pple. hah. and all the fake pple. wheeeeee... im true to who i hate and who i... uhm... do i like anyone? hah.
well... let's see sats 2 was quite an experience... yayyy now no more tearing over impossible to do math problems. and they were impossible to do cuz uhm... the question was wrong, answer wrong too. but yea it's over... hopefully. i hope results dun deal too big a blow on me. i dun exactly look forward to feeling horrible for so long. i mean i feel like ive been on prozac for really long. hah. ok la some may know what i mean some may not. but yea. this is my prozac.
hmm i chose st francis cuz it's near and also yea i din wanna take at ac cuz i din wanna see... some pple. yea then well met joanne there... haha... so coincidental. turns out alota rj pple there but there were a few nj ones too. then bloody hell im so blind. when i went into the room, warmed my butt on the seat, then someone asked me for lead. someone with a familiar voice. then when i turned... SHE WAS HUIMEI! wahhhh like 2 years no see la. hahah... so happy to see her. was gaping like a damn fish. bloody hell la... she din have to shock me lidat... hahaha
but yea im always happy to see old frens... except those who've changed into pompous shits so difficult to get along with. damn.
then went for lunch with her at bukit panjang plaza. i'd never seen the place before. heh. whoops. then well yea my unagi was like rotting and super soya sauced. so horrible. haha talked to her abt unis, abt rj, abt pple in rj, abt old frens, abt alota stuff. haha... and i told her abt how some pple have become like real big jokes. like yea. well cant wait till i get outta here.
hopefully the pple who still mean that little bit to me now are never gonna change... or at least nv gonna become pple who are so... i dunno. it's difficult to keep friendships when only one end's trying to keep up. it's like trying to strike up conversation when one topic dies down after another... horrible. but it's such a pity to let like so many years of friendship and goofing off lie fallow. then so sad when pple u cud like kick in the arse in the past became pple who u can only say hi on the streets. and u're afraid of seeing them ard cuz u dunno wat to say how to act. sad case la... bleh but guess im gonna hafta face up to reality sooner or later that soon i wont remember anyone "back then". so it was a bad way to think that length of time is a measure of how well u know someone.
hmm, i got my gown already. n stupid metro over there said that it's gonna go outta season by dec cuz it's fall/winter. bloody metro. bloody hell u may beat me flat with grades. but watch it... merv has shelves and shelves of pretty gels and facial washes! whee. n i curse u not to be able to get tt scholarship so u'll be putting on camouflage while im like having a helluva a time mugging in uni. hah. oops. i really dunno what i'll be doing in uni. dorm life seems like the best thing. i mean it's just so cool... to me la... to have a roomie(hopefully not some idiot who drives me nuts) and like i dunno... road trips with dorm mates and all. n my first choice is a coed VERY VERY new dorm. yay less girl problems. haha. i think im going.... not straight... but not crooked either. i only like guys i see on the small screen. haha. like the guy i just saw on disney channel. but yea... i mean i dun like girls. n it's so nice to have guy frens cuz they're so easy going n so fun cuz they can actually take jokes. so yea. im gonna go be a nun. haha... actually being not straight or crooked or whatever isnt such a bad thing. i think. argh. i dunno. but i def wont like girls. i mean i get disgusted sometimes. bleh. oh well... i admire blackie now. and will admire him forever! he's like soooooo niiiiiiiiiiiccccccccccceeeeeeeeeeee.... unrealistically loyal, righteous, devoted, talented(in a humble way), blur, cute, honest, kind, yada yada. sooo nice. damn the show can only get better. im in love with a big black box.
n soon im gonna be in love with an ipod and olympus mju mini digicam! wheeee.... so happy... soon soon. haha nxt year. working and studying. sounds real independent. hope i can pull it off. but i dont like depending on others. so yea... hope hope hope cross fingers and hope.
wells... hmmm the hot topic now is prom la. haha... got so many plans. haha... yay? damn i wanna go overseas end of this yearrrrr.... my parents say i wont like burma... but i kinda like old stuff. but kinda feel like going to a beach resort with frens... like bintan! i mean i found so many sand dollars there last time... so pretty. i wanna look for more! n i like pretty pretty aussie. and everything. anything but spore. haha... im so horrid am i. but yea i dint bother to lie to my parents tt i'll come back to spore or sth. cuz im gonna try my best to stay away. but if i really cant.... then it's back here for me. then im gonna work my arse off to get out of it again.
after As shall experiment with my hair and stuff. yay cant wait to perm it. haha and no, im not gonna look like the principal pix hanging up in the hall. my hair's not tt short.
hmm go check out natasha bedingfield's these words are my own... REALLY NICE... very funky... "read some byron shelley and keats over some hiphop beat"
then simple plan's welcome to my life rocks too. lyrics are really honest, and tune's real nice. think they drifting frm punk to alternarock.. or at least rock with a melody. dunno what the hell.
nightie night, later.
She needed someone at 6:33 AM
