Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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How to defer to men in solve-able predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
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How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
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How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
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How to numb a la holic to avoid going within
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haha...okay so im apathy? am i that apathetic? haha i used to be told that i give too much of a damn n i shud just learn to relac sit back and leave everything to fate or sth like that. haha but well half of it is right half of it is wrong i guess? as usual when i do these stupid quizzes... i mean the questions are so... dumb? yea... but a person has different areas of his/her life... apathy can overwhelm in one of these areas and not even a pinch of it can even be found elsewhere. i mean apathy arises from jadedness and people get jaded about different things at different times.
but one thing's for sure... we all end up wholly jaded at the end of this tiring journey.
i haven blogged for like forever. and here i am back again but not in full force cuz im not supposed to be here anyway. TODAY ONWARDS, IM GONNA BE A CONFORMIST, GIVING TEACHERS WHAT THEY WANT, SAY GOODBYE TO THE OLD MUAH. hah. haha merv wud know. but yea damn he's right... i shud follow their beautiful structures and memorise everything word for word such that all my writings end up having absolutely no essence for me. i like to write for the interest of it. opinions, imaginations, products of that little mist above my head, the dreamy me. writing comes best when u dont feel restricted, so i think people are at their most interesting when they write(in hand) and when they blog. yup. im a naturalist. i have italised that damn word cuz it's not being used the way it usually is. hah how bout that. it's a compre thing. damn damn damn how ironic. okay im gonna be explaining the irony in a way that would give a gp teacher the right to fail me cuz it doesnt follow the way of the metatextuals. how ironic that i did so bloody well for the essay and compre for prelims 2003 and pretty much screwed myself in the prelims 2004. then i was born so late that i cudda easily been a 1987 baby when im telling myself that i shudda been born a year earlier. the years are just simple screwed up for me. and well u wudden have seen the irony in that cuz i dint bother to explain. damn it sucks do be like 2nd last in ur gp class when it's the best class la... it's like so freaking stressful surrounded by the powerful pple. and damn another irony... i followed my intuition and did this prelims gp frm my heart... frm what i felt abt a topic i dint try to be politically correct... but well... this intuition of mine really told me inflation would come out for econs and then deflation came out. obvious irony. so yea. what an intuition. damn, so im not that much like my brudder. im not so intuitive. hah.
how fun.
anyhows prelims was okay kinda feel i cudda done better for some papers like bio ppr 2... which i conveniently lost... but yea... i mean i just needed to not be such a slacker and study drips and drapes of the core topics... then i wud actually know how to answer the questions. and i realised i really cant answer questions that require regurgitation. logic rules. and that the nephron's made of what the hell, loop of henle and that there's a thick ascending limb and it's whatever the hell permeable does not make sense as logic. it's on my "memorise" big flashy neon bulb sorter. but yea... ive never done better. n i did better than both my bros did on As. but gp... im like 2nd last in my class, kinda sucks being in such a good class then doing so badly... u feel like an idiot. cuz u're with the smart ones. but oh well i shall ace my As's gp. after all, i really do like writing. i like opinion. gp's great fun to not be serious about. it's just a bundle of laughter to have to sort out ur thoughts. ok im a messy person. ok la... but hmm i really hope i get AABB for As. i mean i think that's the best i can do for As and i'll be happy with that. and i damn well hope that the same screwup tt happened in sec sch doesnt repeat itself. the subjects i usually do better in, and im interested in, they'd better get the A.... i mean an A for math doesnt mean as much to be as an A for econs. cuz i like econs, and it's part of my future. yup, people just wont understand my psyche. to most, who cares where the A or B was? i mean damn hell i got AABB that's like the best man i dun give a shit ... any A is good. u're taking an A at it's face value. an A becomes a meaningless thing. it means u're not good at the subject that'll become part of ur future. HENCE my attitude towards math... i dont like it dont want it to become part of my future so i know i can do better but i cant be bothered i dont work as hard as pple already good at it cuz i dun see the point in torturing myself. a B at a level is good enough for me... thou for everyone else it's a destined A. WHY? because math is so easy to score. so focus focus on math... give ur all to math... then u get that A for math. but do u like it? no. so what's in the end? u're giving up ur passion for something passive. and think about it this way... at As, we get grades, not points. so what happens is that a high A and a low A... no one's the wiser. it's an A all the same. and u give ur all for that high A while someone else who evens it out actually gets a low A without knowing it, but does well for the others. really, sometimes it's sad when singapore kids are forced to do what they dont like. something they know for sure that will never be part of their life. maybe u like something... then go for it! why compromise ur likes for ur dislikes? doesnt make sense to do so does it?
well yea... anyhow. ranting over. out.
She needed someone at 8:26 AM
