Friday, September 17, 2004
iNcuBus-pArdoN mE
Pardon me while I burst
Pardon me while I burst
A decade ago, I never thought I would be
At twenty-three on the verge of spontaneous combustion
Woe is me
But I guess that it comes with the territory
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity
I need you to hear, I need you to see
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility to me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me... They'll never be the same.
Not two days ago, I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees.
I said, "I can relate,"
'Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication
As a welcome vacation from
The burdens of the planet Earth
Like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D
But thinking so much differently
Pardon me while I burst into flames
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. They'll never be the same
Never be the same… yeah
Pardon me while I burst into flames
Pardon me... Pardon me... Pardon me
So pardon me while I burst into flames
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me... They'll never be the same
Pardon me...
Never be the same... yeah.
oo tactless tactless me but hey what abtcha?
anyhow it reminded me of denz laz time at hc funfair say i so frank say sth to someone then got him pissed then say that im damn compatible with someone else. kinda uhmmm.. hey im not always like that! i think..
anyhow digressing back, how dya find this new song on my site now? go switch ya speakers on then u'll hear it if u're wondering what im talking abt. anyhows, ive got the uhm plugged version of this song... but really sometimes acoustic sounds better. like foo fighter's everlong no matter how much laogong likes the noisy version. but yea anyhow for this song... i like the guitarwork in the acoustic version. but the original one's got more anger in it. doesnt sound so laid back. both are great in their own right i guess. but i cant find the orig version frm tt site. oh wells.
it's a mighty mighty old song... came frm the era of obsession with obscure songs which kinda still stretched till today. been listening to the cd with this song and earth to andy's crystallize and big star, and fuel's innocence and blind and deftones' be quiet and drive. (erm merv i dedicate this song to u.... the "be quiet and drive" song... cuz.. SHUT UP ABT DRIVING! hmf. heh)
anyhows yea been feeling exactly like well, this song, lately... go read the lyrics. maybe it's the stress, maybe it's something else who knows? hah.
but don't worry i've brought myself back to this earth. well this song's got an f word in the start but uhm... f it? haha.
gosh pple can be so bitchy sometimes, kinda glad ive got frens who don't know nj pple n so i can just bitch but i still dont say names. bleh but haven unloaded so far. kinda sucks when u're a girl cuz when ur guy frens get attached u just don't wanna make trouble for them so u dont talk to them so much. esp if the other girl doesnt know u. eek horrible misunderstandings? not my type. *dodge dodge*
hmms slept at 3 yesterday again... haha kinda put myself to sleep with the two cantonese songs i love. haha the one i talked abt frm the 9pm show showing now simply makes u fall asleep with a smile on ur face kinda thing. it's slow, sweet, and well indescribably beautiful. i mean i dont really understand the words except for a few which mean really sweet things.... there's one abt no matter how hard it gets, u still gotta walk on. n i think it's a love song... so i think it's talking abt that. and yea one day i'll understand the entire song. haha... i really really wanna learn canton. darn darn darn. do they offer cantonese classes anywhere? oh yah... uhm does anyone know the meaning of "hum ga leng"? haha it's supposedly a cantonese vulgarity sorry if it's sth sick but i honestly don't care but yea i was gushing abt cantonese and hongkies and the shows and the 9pm show n stuff n well yea i was gushing then vin said to go find out what this list of canton words mean haha cuz they're vulgarities. i bet the cantons were using them on him the little *censor*. hahaha... but yea im kinda curious too. haha. but well back to topic... this song i was talking abt really rocks my sox. haha.. it's esp nice with earphones on. it's like e guy's singing in ur ear... haha. one day when i figure out the mystery of html i'll put the songs on and u'll know what i mean now i can only get frm this mp3 site. it's so so sweet... it kinda puts in my head the image of a perfect dream and a perfect life. where there are pple who will actually be there for u. like the perfect guy, the perfect. like walking down a quiet street at night in a safe little town hand in hand, just talking. talking abt nothing at all, or joking or whatever. or the perfect friend who'd tell u everything abt her life, or who u cud tell everything to. basically pple u can trust. n pple who can comfort u by just sitting there wordlessly as u feel sad, they can comfort u with simply their presence. pple who really cry with u or really feel elated with u. pple who don't judge pple who love u for who u are and would hate it if u changed. ah doesnt it sound like a perfect world? haha it's frm the naive little bit of me tt still dares to dream. haha. but it's just absolutely sweet. u don't have to do something politically correct all the time, u don't have to be a cliched friend. just be urself and if there's someone there who'd love u just for that, u've found paradise in that person. it's paradise simply being urself isnt it? there's so much perfection in what i've just described. unattainable perfection. haha quoting this thing frm the newspaper today, "love is temporal, passion is forgettable and pain is forever" i just quoted a quote. haha. tdy 3 pple agreed that they were in complete self-denial. sometimes u just find someone who fits that perfection u have in mind, someone who dares to believe in being himself. but one day u choose to leave it all n when u return, u realise that everything's changed. he's no longer the same and u've gotta get over it. perfection was lost.
haha note this is actually a happy thought this is the store of happy thoughts anyhow. but well im sure there're pple out there who can relate.
hmms. well the second song frm "a herbalist affair" (ok it sounds dumb), but yea it's another canton show... and it's sung by flora chan and andy hui. it's a duet that totally cheers u up. haha it puts into my head the image frm the show of tt really cute girl who was originally with tt guy i think roger kwok n how they pretty much went through tough times together n how it's like their relationship was sooo sweet. sometimes it makes me cringe when i think of friends who've had a taste of that n one day lost it all. pple who used to tell me how their life was so wonderful that it's like fairytale they're so afraid of shattering years ago. then in an instance, during this coming of age, it's all lost. any innocence, any hope they held for real beauty, lost. kinda sad. guess everything comes with their risks. but well i loved the show n it was so sweet tt they cared abt each other so much. there was this one epi that was so so touching man. haha... really admire the acting skills of hongkie actors. they really get absorbed into their roles. haha yay. i dun like heavenly sword dragon sabre or whatever is tt dumb magic show where a hand gesture can cause the mountain to collapse or u gotta save some princess or whatever chauvinistic stereotypes there are. haha oops. i think ive offended someone. but yea. haha reality rox? haha when the show chronicles sth that's abit more realistic, u feel that it can apply to u, tt u can relate, and so u feel for it n yar la then it becomes ur alternate reality, the perfect dream world to lose urself in. haha... everyone needs a place to seek solace dont they.
haha i actually finally have time to talk bull like that. never felt so relaxed before man. finally this week's over i can survive nxt week! n well i survived. well anyhows lux's antistress spa shower cream really works(*popup advert*)... hahahah feeling so... i dunno do they put muscle relaxant in tt thing? cuz im feeling kinda sleepy n all. like floating. n haha ok maybe it's the smell. yay. stinky me aint nice.
today's bio ppr 3 really cheered me up man... chem was bad, really bad. but the bio ppr 3, i actually managed to finish(thanks to my watch which was five minutes fast). n ive got a good feeling abt it. yup. kelly's like a superspotter. amazing. if i didnt listen i wudda been tearing more hair out during the exam. oh speaking of tt, like what twenty over strands of hair came outta muh head today. shampoo sucks. it plucks hair out. stress too. im so happy my hair's finally past e shoulder!!! wheeee... but im gonna cut my fringe and trim my hair nxt week... think i'll streak it red like another day. aft As. hope the hairdresser doesnt cut it too short. i'll scream. haha. i shall not fall asleep.
hmms. caffeine+stress+bball+green tea=nausea. not good. lack of sleep too. hmm... shall go watch the show now! haha maybe i'll come back to gush more abt it! today he finds out she's actually a girl n yea it'd be perfect! soooo nice hope they end up together... the mongolian and her just... dun go together. honest, loyal, righteous over brave and influential man! haha quoted frm the show again. haha sorta.
She needed someone at 4:45 AM
