Tuesday, August 31, 2004
LaRa fAbiaN-nO bIg dEaL
Looking from a distance, seems like I've lost it all
And everyone around me is waiting for this girl to fall
But my heart isn't missing, I've just lost control
If I don't know why, why would I know how?
I've been working with the devils, trying to exorcise
My feelings I've been hiding down in a darker side
There wasn't any trading, never sold my soul
I'm simply moving on, going, gone
Think I'm losing the fight to make sense of it all
Got to build on my life so I'm safe from the fall
I'm subjected, expected to know what I feel
But I don't feel nothing, it's alright, no big deal
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
No big deal
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
How can I expect anybody to understand?
I've been sadly mistreating all on my own demands
Now all I need is freedom
Not this ego-land
I wanna do no wrong
I'm simply moving on
I'm going, going, gone
I think I'm losing the fight to make sense of it all
Got to build on my life so I'm safe from the fall
I'm subjected, expected to know what I feel
But I don't feel nothing, it's alright, no big deal
It's Alright
And after all I know, there's nothing left to say
And if it's all my fault, I'll take it all
I'm moving on, going, going, gone
And I'm losing the fight to make sense of it all
Got to build on my life so I'm safe from the fall
I'm subjected, expected to know what I feel
But I don't feel nothing, it's alright, no big deal
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
I think I'm losing the fight
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
So I'm safe from the fall
I'm subjected, expected to know what I feel
But I don't feel nothing, it's alright, no big deal
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
It's Alright
No big deal
(it's alright, it's alright, no big deal)
I'm subjected, expected to know what I feel
listening to this song now yups... it's really good. lara fabian has a really strong voice... sounds abit like some other artiste.. ooo ya... delta goodrem, sounds a hell lot like her voice but delta goodrem's songs are more... heavenly kinda airy fairy type. my impression.
and yea there's piano too! haha... really beautiful.
today's teacher's day performance was good.... as in well the performances.... the 37th are good at getting pple to come perform? and their skit was really good! it was really funny! and they got the best people for it... yups. and the year ones are generally good at performing.... esp singing! whee. the honkie-lookalike is reallie cute! but no one else finds him cute! i found him cute long ago but today he sang and whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa he's damn good. for english songs that is. n he sang such a sweet song! i mean it's not exactly rock but it's still real sweet and it was by my fav actor! haha. he's damn damn damn good at singing. didnt look like it! seems like all e guys i find cute are really good singers. hah! becky's the dancer-lover im the singer-lover. haha but i was damn impressed with 2 year ones' dancing... haha the street guys one... where everyone was poseuring, wearing dog tags. it's so obvious their dancing's the best of the lot, lots of energy plus they look the part. dancer-guys are good too. wahahaha
i've a tendency to be really interested in stuff which i like watching. not bearing in mind whether im good at it or not. like i loved watching people dance(non-ballet/ballroom, nth that starts with a "ball" haha) and yea tt's the one and only reason i joined dance. i like to do stuff i like watching. i don't like to take a passive role all the time thou it's nice at times. and i like watching people play in bands and loving what they do. and yup nxt up, learning electric guitar, it's kinda late but it's an interest thing. i mean somewhere out there when u're performing, there's someone watching who thinks just like u, who loves watching people dance who loves watching people play. yups, sounds anything like xiaominism? hahaha nah cant beat mervynism and haogenism, which is full of, well.. duh crap.
i spent the day watching disney, eating popcorn, and sleeping. AGAIN. n in less than 2 wks im gonna be screwed for prelims. WTF am i doing screwing with my life like that? oh wells. and i havent really prepared for prom. n after prelims i have SATS 2. i don't want anyone to rub my face into the ground again just cuz i missed something he missed too. so much expectations, so little time. well nxt year im facing reality most probably.
wish i wasnt born who i am, then maybe i wont feel so forced, then i can be the person everyone wants me to be.
anyway i honestly think she should try out for it. im not saying that cuz i want her to go to the same place as me, but application, u can apply to a few and choose later, when u're not so stressed by the onslaught of exams. and when u know exactly what u wanna do. cuz it's a really good place, i have to admit, if not for him then i will definitely choose it without reservations.
watching e 37th work made me feel real nostalgic. maybe it's cuz my life revolved ard council before now. now it revolves ard slacking, and the tiny bursts of studying. haha... but yea alota pple are still very hard on them, and i personally also feel they have yet to have proven their worth with a great n original project. people keep comparing them to 36th. like we were compared to 35th but we managed to break outta that rut. people feel they treat every project as something they just have to do. nothing else. i have no idea and i don't know what to say when others say that, but well maybe they have their difficulties? DMR? haha. merv go analyse leh.
well everyone's in a vicious cycle now, one day, just someday we'll break out of it, wont we?
i shall go apply for dorms. ohhhh well.
She needed someone at 5:45 AM
