Monday, August 23, 2004
K's choIcE-nOt aN addIct
Breathe it in and breathe it out
And pass it on, it's almost out
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot
It's not an habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling.
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel...
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
I'm not an addict...
ok i changed the song. hahs. fickle fickle me. wheeee... anyhows.. yea this song is on drugs. i guess. or a comparison of something to drugs. the feeling u get and everything. u can be an addict to many many things anyhows...
yups and this is k's choice.. i knew abt this band since sec sch cuz they sang for buffy yup the song was virgin state of mind.. their sound is quite goth and pretty dark too. got to know this song frm the cd i got for 3 bucks...recording of the lilith fair! haha... cant believe no one wanted that cd... it's got treasures man... like sarah mclachlan's black and white, sixpence none the richer's kiss me, chantal kreviazuk's surrounded.. some songs sound way too country for me thou. but i love the sarah mclachlan song it's really beautiful. but couldnt find it on the mp3 site so yea. and i haven been able to upload my own mp3s so i can host my own songs. but yea one day one day. anyways this song gives u really beautiful visual images... just close ur eyes and imagine. i see a deep dark abyss that's pretty much beautiful in it's own right i guess. and i see a girl falling through it, smiling. yups. as the wind whips past her face and sweeps her hair up..haha.. crap right?
anyways im such a slacker... i haven done so much work. goodness. im feeling stressed but not doing anything abt it how bout that? wells but today im real happy cuz i finally passed my math... for once seriously once! goodness i was so happy i was squeaking squeaking. but yea it's a paper 2 im lousy at pure math so yea. let's just see how badly i'll do for prelims. when i dun have stats to back me up. hopefully i do well in econs too that wud definitely boost my ego. haha and then i'll slack more.
i watched treasure planet yesterday nite! again! it's nice as usual, a cartoon not focused on romance that's nice it focuses on sth more complex, sth bigger than romance. and i think the guy's cute! like his hairdo! and the way he was uhm skateboard-flying thru the air and loving it so much. animation's pretty good yea. i like disney's old fashioned animation... cartoons arent meant to look real, if u want to make it look real then u might as well get real actors etc and add in cgi and all that jazz. the beauty of cartoons lies in how they're creations spun from imagination. that's how powerful the mind is...
anyhow got my prelims bio prac like in three minutes, my bio pract would be officially tmr. but wells im not feeling the rush. goodness. what's happened to me? hahs. but yea im a woman of leisure ya? haha
today i ponned dialogue session... and regretted. cuz i dint do anything productive(other than almost getting hit by some dumb bird that flew outta a classroom and almost rammed into me at the high speed it was flying at. it landed on the grass beside me and stared at me as i stared back at it. hah.) anyhows they voted for the FOUR prom kings and queens... GOODNESS! that's EIGHT pple... prom's not meant to be like that! who cares who's the summer autumn shit type king or queen? oh wells. the only way i can look on the bright side of this is that the king and queen position wont be so dominated that it'll seem like a popularity contest, maybe those pple who're really nice yet not so high profile will get it.. think they deserve it. will vote for them that nite. but yea i really wanted to vote... but i wasnt there.
merv the dick wants to rig the votes by photocopying his 100 times over... and he threatened to vote me and this guy. goodness. i almost killed him. and i almost got into trouble cuz of him during econs lect cuz he flashed me this foolscap with blue highlighter with "you and *****" on it and gave me that big evil grin of his. i was like so horrified i signalled for him to close it or he'll really die later tt gilbert lee stopped lecturing and looked at me. dunno if it was a death glare. i only feel good that i got merv into trouble cuz he got caught smsing and gilbert lee went "yes mervyn?" hah! kiat was also shitting ard with my mind damn the arts pple suck
oh sth idiotic merv said "wat type of mkt structure does the lingerie industry have?" goodness i gave him a serious answer! and he came and said it's oligopoly cuz it's "kinked" shit man. like whatever.
studied real unproductively in the library today cuz i was really tired and distracted. so sucky. im so slack im so slack. today i had to slap myself thousands of times to wake up man!
hmms i wanna go goth for prom but im not sure anymore... i mean im not referring to those extreme goth kind like how my bro went trueblue drag. but the drusilla type.. vampirish. like u know dark blood red two tone gown... that's a tube with asymm cut at the top... i saw it at daniel yam i still love it. then yea go anna sui do dark and dramatic makeup. cuz anyways my skin's near white so yea shud go well what. then yea go wear grey contact lenses. yea. im perfectly fine with my eyes but like yea they dun look vampirish. hahs. maybe i should wear violet coloured ones. thou i'll look like a cgi image instd.
yea... but i mean does that sound really dumb going goth for prom, such a glam event? but i dont wanna be like another one of the rest of them, trying to fulfill their dreams to become princesses and glam queens and turning out to look extremely mass produced. i dont want anyone to have the same gown as me but that cant be helped so i mean if if ive got a different look, tt'd be fine too whats.
hmms or maybe i'll just go and get those pale coloured gowns.. im supposedly a spring(thanks to jill lowe in sec4), meaning i look better in pale colours like wth. but yea maybe i'll get those and do my hair in the way like... with flowers woven into it or do a flower crown thing.
i mean ive got a hairdresser near my house whee. but yea... oh well.. undecided abt prom but i know i dont want to go as just another person. im sick of spending 2 years going with the system here and now. im not an all-out rebel, but i mean u can dress real glam and pretty anytime u want, parties, dinner functions and stuff. i mean in uni there must be stuff like spring formal school dances frat/sorority things and there are plenty of parties when you can dress pretty and should dress pretty. but im not out to impress anyone in nj but myself. maybe i'll feel more satisfaction if for once im not what everyone wants me to be.
She needed someone at 8:22 AM
